Blah!

Blah, that is exactly how I've been feeling the past couple of weeks. I've been so disconnected from life. I've been so wrapped up in the on goings of work, the holiday and the hubby finishing up his AA. I have let misery invade me. More tears have fallen in the past couple weeks then I have cried in forever. Chin-up. I did see something beautiful this weekend.

The hubby and I went to church this Sunday and we're a few minutes late. Walking in to the new building we noticed something, there was not a spot to sit down. People were sitting in the window benches. As worship went on the we stood there in the back embraced in each other and just looked around. I was in awe of it and a smile went on my face. I've been going to this church on and off for roughly 5 yrs. We have been at three different locations and experienced many changes. I remember when there were 10 of us gathered including the pastor and his wife, and the church is growing by and leaps and bounds because we are obeying his call.

That right there was something beautiful and something that could take the misery way because I know how God is there.

http://www.cotw.tv/

https://www.facebook.com/#!/churchontheway

Date Day

So yesterday my hubby and I had a wonderful and much needed date day :D.

First, we went and saw our nephew play little league football (a pretty great game!)

then we went to the FAIR!

We went through the booths, met some of the exhibitors, watched a pig race and a pedal push and oh don't let me forget FOOD- kettle corn, nettles sausage, and root beer :D

After all the food fun and animals we went to blockbuster and rented two movies:

   

                                          

                                haha can you tell it was date night?

So me and the hubby got to spend some quality time together cuddling, talking and watching two good movies (he even watched all of  Something Borrowed).

Date day was really important to me, it's really important for us. This week was rough, we have been so busy, Bradley has a new job and school and sermon prep and I have work and the house and such. It's been so stressful lately and we've been snappy with each other because of it. However, its simple, we didn't make time for each other. Date night is super important and I think we both realized that last night and today. It helped both of us unwind, talk, and relax together.  I'm excited about continuing date night and spending time with my love. 

So here is a challenge: Go on a date night....it can be as simple as a rented movie and some kettle corn or

as romantic as Ruth Chris on the river...which ever it may be, enjoy :D

Hello Nurse!

Nursing, ugh!

This was the dream career. I would get a good degree in 2 years, make decent money, be on my own (well kinda), be accomplished and it was something challenging.

HAHAHA,Its challenging in so many ways.

We're currently renting a house which we still receive the junk mail from the previous owner, so every month we receive Reader's Digest which I usually flip thru then toss. I got the booklet the other day and I flip over to see the cover which read: 50 Secrets Nurses Won't Tell You. I was like hmm I wonder what "secret" information I'm holding back. So I open it and started reading the article. It mostly went on about stuff that we typically do, think, or the judgements we make. I know at least 75% of it I agree with or had those same opinions.

What really struck me was in the article it stated "Some jobs are physically demanding. Some are mentally demanding. Some are emotionally demanding. Nursing is all three." I was like "WOW, someone stated it so perfectly!" I become so drained sometimes, its hard to even lift my head after a 12-hr shift. As a nurse you are with a patient for 12 hours doing your best to provide the best care, to solve the problems, make them comfortable, answer the questions, carry out the doctors orders and make sure nothing goes wrong or fix it if it does.

I love my patients, even the ones that may grate on my nerves and think I'm the worst person ever. But this was not the dream job that I had in mind. I know I won't be a floor nurse forever, but I know I need to take this time to learn from it and to care for people. Most people will never really understand the struggle that nursing is, some nurses even won't understand. I think it maybe just the personality type I have and the desire to make things right and to provide the best care. I know for now I will endure the struggle so that I can learn and grow.

http://www.rd.com/slideshows/50-secrets-your-nurse-wont-tell-you/

here is the link to the article for anyone who is interested.

~K. Franks, RN.

something beautiful

I often have the song beautiful things (Gungor) in my head. A song which I enjoy greatly. Its a song that makes me think of God's creation, God creating me, and everything. A lot of the time I do not feel beautiful or even worthy of beauty. I put too much concern on my outward appearance like I don't wear make-up and I rarely do anything fancy to my hair. I'm fairly plain person which isn't bad but sometime I feel like I just want to be beautiful.

All this pain
I wonder if I'll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us.

You make me new, You are making me new
You make me new, You are making me new
You making me new.

~Gungor

Then I realize its not about my hair, my glasses or my lack of make up. My existence is about Jesus and God. He makes beautiful things. He is making me new... Thank God.